Lily ... Sister Lily of Divine Healing

Great Spirit ... Dad ... Gayle ... you've got this one, right? You've got Lily, right?

I've got Kanen.

Who's got me?

Always seek the highest good.

Our incredibly amazing Lily died on Thursday morning in her sleep. I want to send thanks to everyone who has offered extra love and compassion, I want to tell some of you that I understand that you are unable to feel so deeply as you have avoided the situation. All of the LOVE that we have truly felt and will continue to feel and the healing that is surely supporting us is appreciated. It is remarkable kind. Our strength in facing this is growing and at times we have no strength at all.

I am only writing today to let you all know of this huge change in our experience.

Lily's departure was not a complete surprise to us as she had almost ended her earth walk two months ago. She was not young, growing much older each day it seemed ... giving us just a few glimpses of her playfulness here and there. Her health was depleting almost daily. Her last few months were very difficult for her and for us. She more often than not didn't even want to go places with us. The awareness of this was undeniably noticeable and it is difficult to feel the pain and sorrow in this moment in time.

The UPS man delivered bottles for some of my "magic potions" yesterday and when I opened the door I automatically reached down to place my hand at her back as I always do when someone comes to the door. She didn't come around the corner to bark. My touch on Lily's back was always more for the delivery people or clients arriving for sessions and it was always for their comfort or lack of it when facing a BIG BLACK DOG, not to hold Lily back. Lily was a lover.

Lily came into our lives after I had lost my Father and my dear friend Gayle. At the time I knew that my heart was in need of a greater healing than I could conjure up. We adopted Lily (she really adopted us however) to help keep my heart open (to help her see that her ability to LOVE was more than enough). Lily kept my heart open and then opened it more and more and more, all the way up until her last expression of love towards me on Wednesday night.

My Father passed September 5th of 2005. My friend Gayle passed August 15th of 2006. Lily passed just a day or two shy of right in the middle of those two dates. I am sensing the reason why ... I sense that she left when she did to let me know that she filled in the middle of those experiences with her love. She did fill in the middle of those two experiences with her love with more love than I could have imagined.

There is so much more that I could share ... say ... about her. She was the most amazing of all dogs, she was my familiar, my companion day in and day out. In the five years that she was with us, there wasn't a single day that she and I were not together. She was at my side always. Lily was a Spirit Being and an amazing healer, holding the most sacred of spaces during so many healing and counseling sessions, she was so often right at my side, or the side of the client in session. Lily was so strong, the deeper the emotions and the need for healing, the closer Lily came into it to support. I am not sure how I will work alone now, as she was present during so many sessions. I knew that when she would circle my healing table while clients were on it that she had determined that a specialty clearing was required for the client. I had noticed over the last few months that she was preparing for retirement.

Lily was a pure Ceremonial Leader. She was a High Priestess. Her placement in circles and ceremony was profound. If I was in meditation she would sit at my back, if there was two of us in circle she would take the third position. If there was three she would take the open direction and act as a gate keeper. If there was a large gathering ... she would find her way in if she wanted in, always with the utmost of respect. Many times she would circle the circle, setting the energy.

Lily was an integral part of our home, our family, our lives. She was a Sacred SIGNIFICANT Other and a true companion, a holder of the most unconditional love for us. We are so grateful that she blessed us with such deep and loving relationships. Our cat Violet has been deeply effected also, only drinking water from Lily's bowl now and pausing to yowl in the hallway where Lily would lay. It is wonderful in its sadness and truth.

Lily was/IS so much more than a dog. We miss her so much!

So, when you come over for a visit, when you arrive for a gathering or a class/workshop ... please hold the silent space of knowing that Lily won't be answering the door. Thank you. It will help us out a lot by not asking us where she is or what happened. It will really help us out by not asking us how we are doing ... right now we are doing what we should be doing and that is crying a lot when we forget that she isn't here. Please honor our need to grieve ... as long as it take. Lily was a constant companion and a best friend to my son and me.

It is amazing how many times I have heard her over the past few days, expected her to be in my sons room, wondered if she needed to go out, checking her water bowl, wondered how she is. Not seeing her check to see what I was doing.

We have created an altar in the front room for Lily, with our favorite picture of her there and a few sacred items to hold our hearts open for her. Lily's ashes are there too. They will remain there until we decide where to spread them, yes ... spread them at her happiest place to be ... and for Lily that place was always right by our sides, within inches preferably. She may just stay right here. When you visit, and see the altar ... please feel free to send Lily your love.

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Dog Medicine ~ Jamie Sams

Be loyal to yourself.
Be true to others.
Bolster your integrity.

Dog, you are so noble. Until the bitter end, your medicine is the teaching us of being a true and loyal friend.

Dog offers innate loyalty.
Dog embodies loving gentleness.
Dog is the guardian of ancient secrets.
Dog reminds us of our sense of service to others.

A tolerant Spirit dwells in the heart of every canine.

Lily was a Wolf Spirit too. Four out of five vets said that she was part wolf. My vet of 24 years had claimed that "the wolf" would be a problem. He was so wrong and I was so happy to fire him. She was always(during my childhood) with me in my dreams, she was always at my side while I turned my life into my dreams and she will always remain by my side until we meet again in the dream realm, as everything now is the dream realm.

Wolf Medicine - Jamie Sams

Wolf ... Teacher, Pathfinders, Moon-Dog of my Soul. Howling, singing, teaching how to know.

Find new paths and options.
Break through.
Be a role model.
Share your inner knowing.

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If you have a dog, love them twice as much today and every day.
If you don't have a dog, love another persons dog twice as much today and every day.
If you don't own a dog, consider owning a dog, they will change you for the better and we all need that, to be better and for you to be better too.
If you see a dog treated really well, thank the person who treats the dog really well.
If you see a dog treated badly, get the dog away from the bad person and report the bad person to the authorities who treats them badly.

All in all we are very grateful and very happy that Lily was such a complete part of our lives. In truth ... I have no idea what we are going to do without her.

Lily's eyes were open when she died. I believe that she was looking at her light.

Blessings, love and more,

Laurel

August 15th ... how could I resist

Gayle ~ I have decided to send your Spirit Body or your essence a communication via the ethereal atmosphere of the internet. I trust in doing so that the love and light of this will gather up there in the great imagisphere of the universe and you will then collect the good intention of this message whenever you want to.

This is sent as a way to update me of my progress since you passed, I have done really well with the promise that you made me make. You either already know, or you are so far gone in your next lifetime that the thought of me is faint if at all.

I upgraded my website over the past few weeks, and I pledged to a launch date of today. I made it just in time to honor you, publishing the changes at 12:36 this morning. I have grown so much more over this past year. I am glad that you would be happy. I am in full blown loving service. Thank you again, for wanting me to do this.

I have yet to find my partner, my "sacred significant other" as you also made me promise that I would do. I wonder where that promise has gone, but then again I have really only focused on the promise to walk in loving service. For as much work as it has been for me to change for the highest good perhaps now the next work will be connecting with "him".

I hope he understands that I am writing a book now, in addition to looking for him.

I have taken on a deeper love, a sacred significant relationship with Plant Medicine. Of course you know this too, as you placed that sticky Pine Cone in my hands when I left your home the day of your memorial service. The Pine Cone, sacred geometry, the pineal gland activation ... the shut down of your brain, the activation of your light body. The day soon after you passed when your essence came to visit me at work to give me all of the information. That was the same day that you asked me to call Jamie, she had to return to work for the first time and you were worried about her. That day you also saturated me with all of the images of natures patterns. That was intense to say the least, you taught me so much that day, showing me all of the things that I never understood before about geometry. I had no idea that a Pine Cone in 2006 would turn into a profound healing work today. There is so much more about this that you know.

"Love is blind. Friendship is clairvoyant." This is so true as it was all the truth with you Gayle. You saw me in the ways that I live in today. Amazing! I am still stunned by your insight and your faith in me. You got me good with that final promise, last breath stuff. I still cry and I will always thank you. As much as I understand it now, it still just blows me away.

I used to think that you weren't present for the last 10 days of your life. I now believe that you were busier than ever, working out all kinds of details for the greater ways of all of us that you loved so much. The day before you passed when you called for me, me out of all of the people surrounding you to tell me about karma. I got it. I got it. I finally understand about Karma.

I have added the work of "Dying Consciously" or in the Shamanic Ways, the work of "Death Walking" to my medicine bag. I have done this primarily because of what you taught me in the last few weeks of your life. Through this work, I am not afraid of dying. That may be easy to say as it seems that death is nowhere near me in my life right now. That said, we are really never ever prepared. I miss my Dad so much. He passed right after you did. That was a hell of a time to take lessons from. I am not as emotionally awkward when facing the death of others. I offer support to help people cross over now, but mostly to help the ones who are left behind. You quite possibly know what I have learned, and that is that death is just the birth of the Spirit Body into the Spirit Realm. That makes it all so much sweeter when death is looked at in this way.

Gayle, I believe that you came onto this Earth with an agreement that you would activate me before you died. You did activate me before you died. I am eternally grateful as I cry my annual and traditional August 15th tears now. I knew I wouldn't make it through the day without the sweet cleansing of a visit from you.

It gets better every year, I trust the same for you.

Blessings, love and more ... for eternity,

Laurel

Gayle ... I loved you more than I knew.