In the first round … as it holds honor to our babies, our young ones and our children, I ask Grandfather to heal you from those years. I ask that you be relieved of any pain from those memories that you hold of the things that may have been done to you that no young one would even imagine. I asked that you be soothed from any pain that you hold for not having been given the care, comfort and protection that a little one needs and deserves. I ask that you be given the strength to forgive your chosen birth Mother and birth Father for any inability they may have had to be better parents to you. I ask that Grandfather in his great wisdom give you more or less as he knows you better than me.
In the second round … as it holds honor to our older children, our adolescents and young people … the ones in between the not small enough and not big enough stage of life. I ask Grandfather to heal you from those years. I ask that you be relieved from any painful memories that you may hold from any way that you may have been mistreated, abandoned or even discarded. I ask that you be soothed from any pain that you may hold for not having been given the guidance, respect, dedication and protection that a young one needs and deserves. I ask that you be given the strength to forgive your chosen birth parents and their relations, your siblings for any inability they may have had to be better caregivers for you. I ask that Grandfather in his great wisdom give you more or less as he knows you better than me.
In the third round … as it holds honor to the grown ones, the adults in the stage of life that we are now in. The age that brings us "the knowing" of who we have been and the directions for who we are becoming … the time where we deal with our past and our future. I ask Grandfather to heal you in these years. I ask that you be relieved of the pain that you may be feeling from fear, from loss and from lack of direction in any present moment. I ask that he support you as you seek your highest good. I ask that he lift your feet on your path so that you can move forward in life and find the joy and comfort that you deserve. I ask that he give you strength to forgive yourself for any inability you may have ever had to be a better person for yourself and for others. I ask that Grandfather in his great wisdom give you more or less as he knows you better than me.
In the fourth round … as it holds honor to the elders, the old ones, the wise one, the lived ones, the experiences ones. I ask that Grandfather answer my prayers from the first three rounds as that will support you and prepare you for all that you need when you are an old one. I ask that Grandfather in his great wisdom give you more or less as he knows you better than me.
Full Moon Lodge ... June 18, 2008
Monday, March 16, 2009
x 3 ...
apples, alchemy, anatomy - benevolence, bold kindness, breathing - crusty breads, courage, colors (all of them under different forms of light) - dahlias, dancing, difficulties - earth, energy, enthusiasm - friends, fires, forests (not forest fires) - greens, gardening, grace - honesty, hip huggers, holding (loved ones) - islands (off the coast where I live), incense (nag champa), ice (when it forms snowflakes) - J 1, J 2 and J 3 - K (the only one), kisses (narcotic quality), kindness (again) - LOVE, learning, lodge - music, (the) MOON, melting - nutmeg (fresh), nudges (from Spirit), NEW (Moon Intentions Setting Circles with the amazing women in our group) - oceans, (sweet) onions, oils (essential) - pinot noir, palo santo, painting - quality, quantum results, questions - REIKI, romance, rocks (romance rocks) - sharpies (pens for art and writing), still points, salads - teaching, Thanskgiving, textures - Universal (LIFE Force Energy), unity, undaunting (faith in onesself) - vishudda, vulnerability, vegetables (raw and roasted) - writing, willingness, Western Slope (of Colorado and the Aspen trees there and a hundred memories all good, including the Devil's Theatre) - x-tra credit, x-tra savings, x-tra time - you, your courage, Yosemite - (Led) Zepplin, Zazen, Zig Ziggler Seminars (just kidding, I am not a sales rep for a highly competitive company
Old thoughts on Father passing ...
My father passed in September of '06. It was a catalystic time for me, the outcome of which has been beautiful ... things that I never thought I would see in my lifetime came to be from the momentum of his death.
I wrote the following soon after his passing ...
My father passed away. The grief is overwhelming. Throughout my life my father and I let insignificant things get in the way of truly caring for each other.
What makes me sad, what is my grief? We wasted time and opportunities.
If you miss someone now who is still alive, stop missing them. Get in front of them and tell them how you feel. Apologize, forgive, listen, speak, explain, understand, ask to be undersood ... or just make your missing them known.
Our journey on this earth is about many things. In the finer moments it is all about love ... first to accept love and learn and the exchange is to give love and teach.
The journey of a loved one is much too short when they are gone and you are left behind to miss them
I wrote the following soon after his passing ...
My father passed away. The grief is overwhelming. Throughout my life my father and I let insignificant things get in the way of truly caring for each other.
What makes me sad, what is my grief? We wasted time and opportunities.
If you miss someone now who is still alive, stop missing them. Get in front of them and tell them how you feel. Apologize, forgive, listen, speak, explain, understand, ask to be undersood ... or just make your missing them known.
Our journey on this earth is about many things. In the finer moments it is all about love ... first to accept love and learn and the exchange is to give love and teach.
The journey of a loved one is much too short when they are gone and you are left behind to miss them
Kitty Report ...
How could I resist a pour little kitty?
I am in need of some professional examinations I think ... this is my 4th rescue in just a little over two years ... Mojo the leopard gecko rescued 18 months ago ... Lily the AMAZING dog rescued last October, Banu the ball python rescued last month ... all our pets now.
AND NOW .... the little hisser (kitten) found day before yesterday ... initially placed in protective custody, confined quarters (to protect it from its self) in a cat carrier by some incredibly courageous friends, until I got off work that evening.
I knew I was facing trouble when the perfect name for the little hisser came forward. Solid black kitty surviving in our "mean streets" neighborhood to even be found ... magic, pure magic ... kitty, black kitty ... black magic ... kitty name ... Voodoo!
There is no such thing as a free pet ... NO SUCH THING AS FREE PETS ... this is what I kept telling myself. There are a lot of good people out there. Our common thread is LOVE. I am one of those good people (sucker that I must be). The owner must miss this cute kitty.
So I sent out the prayer requests to my friends, for me .... that the owner shows up fast (posted on craigslist and the local paper, signs around the hood too) ... if there is no owner ... who wants this incredibly cute little hisser?
It is sad that I have received 7 inquiries from cat owners ... their cats all missing ... 6 of them missing in my "mean streets" neighborhood. Not a single question about "the little hisser" ... Voodoo, that I have taken in. Hum?
It turns out that Voodoo is one mean little MOFO at this moment in time. I don't think calling "IT" Angel would help either. This little "IT" just might have been wild in my "mean streets" neighborhood? No Way!!!!!
If I were CRAZY I would certainly considering keeping "IT" as "IT" has emerald green eyes, potentially a little black fuzz ball with EMERALD GREEN EYES ... come on, that is cute.
I have four friends already in line for "IT", if the owner misses "IT". Hum? I will have to write up a "NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR DAMAGES" contract for the SUCKA who takes "IT".
We housed "IT" in my son's bathroom last night and "IT" immediately took full residence. It was impressive that such a little ball of fur could create such an intense presence. This little "IT" was totally working the hostile energy angle. It was so clear that "IT" was totally freaked out and willing to mirror this at just about anyone who tried to care.
I left "IT" alone with food, water, a litter box, a fuzzy blanket and good vibes.
During the night I was aware of some amazing sounds coming out of the bathroom. At one point I wondered if a kitty that size could really create that much noise (damage) in such a small room.
"IT" could create that much noise (damage) in such a small room.
I felt like room service this morning for a cranky ... high maintenance rock star as I scanned the room that "IT" had totally destroyed ... potpourri (weird word), rock salt, q-tips and cotton balls EVERYWHERE. The trash can was knocked over and ... "IT" uses a cat box at least.
I cleaned the bathroom for "IT", placed fresh bedding in the tub for "IT", removed "sh"IT" for "IT" from the cat box, replenished food and water for "IT", "IT" let me touch "IT" for a second and then "IT" went VORTEX on me ... I RAN from the room before "IT" could get me ... !!! ... closing the door tightly behind me and in front of "IT" ... stating ... HOLY "SH"IT" !!!! as I ran down the hall with my broom and my cleaning supplies causing a racket for the other sleeping guests across the hall.
This is not my line of work.
I am in need of some professional examinations I think ... this is my 4th rescue in just a little over two years ... Mojo the leopard gecko rescued 18 months ago ... Lily the AMAZING dog rescued last October, Banu the ball python rescued last month ... all our pets now.
AND NOW .... the little hisser (kitten) found day before yesterday ... initially placed in protective custody, confined quarters (to protect it from its self) in a cat carrier by some incredibly courageous friends, until I got off work that evening.
I knew I was facing trouble when the perfect name for the little hisser came forward. Solid black kitty surviving in our "mean streets" neighborhood to even be found ... magic, pure magic ... kitty, black kitty ... black magic ... kitty name ... Voodoo!
There is no such thing as a free pet ... NO SUCH THING AS FREE PETS ... this is what I kept telling myself. There are a lot of good people out there. Our common thread is LOVE. I am one of those good people (sucker that I must be). The owner must miss this cute kitty.
So I sent out the prayer requests to my friends, for me .... that the owner shows up fast (posted on craigslist and the local paper, signs around the hood too) ... if there is no owner ... who wants this incredibly cute little hisser?
It is sad that I have received 7 inquiries from cat owners ... their cats all missing ... 6 of them missing in my "mean streets" neighborhood. Not a single question about "the little hisser" ... Voodoo, that I have taken in. Hum?
It turns out that Voodoo is one mean little MOFO at this moment in time. I don't think calling "IT" Angel would help either. This little "IT" just might have been wild in my "mean streets" neighborhood? No Way!!!!!
If I were CRAZY I would certainly considering keeping "IT" as "IT" has emerald green eyes, potentially a little black fuzz ball with EMERALD GREEN EYES ... come on, that is cute.
I have four friends already in line for "IT", if the owner misses "IT". Hum? I will have to write up a "NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR DAMAGES" contract for the SUCKA who takes "IT".
We housed "IT" in my son's bathroom last night and "IT" immediately took full residence. It was impressive that such a little ball of fur could create such an intense presence. This little "IT" was totally working the hostile energy angle. It was so clear that "IT" was totally freaked out and willing to mirror this at just about anyone who tried to care.
I left "IT" alone with food, water, a litter box, a fuzzy blanket and good vibes.
During the night I was aware of some amazing sounds coming out of the bathroom. At one point I wondered if a kitty that size could really create that much noise (damage) in such a small room.
"IT" could create that much noise (damage) in such a small room.
I felt like room service this morning for a cranky ... high maintenance rock star as I scanned the room that "IT" had totally destroyed ... potpourri (weird word), rock salt, q-tips and cotton balls EVERYWHERE. The trash can was knocked over and ... "IT" uses a cat box at least.
I cleaned the bathroom for "IT", placed fresh bedding in the tub for "IT", removed "sh"IT" for "IT" from the cat box, replenished food and water for "IT", "IT" let me touch "IT" for a second and then "IT" went VORTEX on me ... I RAN from the room before "IT" could get me ... !!! ... closing the door tightly behind me and in front of "IT" ... stating ... HOLY "SH"IT" !!!! as I ran down the hall with my broom and my cleaning supplies causing a racket for the other sleeping guests across the hall.
This is not my line of work.
Ingenious Passion ... a few months ago
A friend of mine recently shared an Aries horoscope with me, written by Rob Brezney. It read as follows …
"ARIES: a reader bragged to me about her prowess, she wrote "My capacity for expressing love far surpasses that of anyone I have ever met, I am a Sublime Genius of Love, a Master of Unconditional Compassion, a Virtuoso of Deep Empathy." Your assignment in the coming days, Aries, is to compete with her: Unleash a perfect storm of ingenious passion that will ignite subtle revolutions everywhere you go. Explore the frontiers of smart love".
I immediately wondered what this reader was doing bragging about being so capable of love and so enlightened about how to share it. What is she doing "bragging" with a consciousness like that when she could paint rainbows with her fingertips instead of focus on affirmations to live by. That is when it dawned on me that this was an affirmation, a mantra … a devotion to love.
Very sweet.
Then Brezny promotes a classic move to instigate other Aries beings to compete. Like he knows we will. We will or at least I did … compete … but with myself. I took myself to task on the part of the horoscope that centered in me, to "unleash a perfect storm of ingenious passion that will ignite subtle revolutions everywhere you go … to explore the frontiers of smart love".
That is such a powerful initiative and it compelled me to look at my desire for a love relationship. I seek my true companion with each aspect of my being … the emotional, the mental, the physical and the spiritual.
To "unleash a perfect storm" … a perfect storm … a perfect storm. What is a perfect storm? The thunderstorms that roll into the Rocky Mountains of Colorado on a warm/hot summer's afternoon … the kind of thunderstorms that you want to be playful in came to mind.
"Ingenious Passion" …
INGENIOUS: showing or calling for intelligence, aptitude, or discernment ~ marked by a special aptitude at discovering, inventing, or contriving ~ marked by originality, resourcefulness, and cleverness in conception or execution ~ clever.
PASSION: an emotion, a feeling ~ the emotions as distinguished from reason ~ intense, driving, or overmastering feeling or conviction ~ an outbreak of anger ~ ardent affection, LOVE ~ a strong liking or desire for or devotion to some activity, object, or concept ~ sexual desire ~ an object of desire or deep interest ~ fever, ardor, enthusiasm (you should never analyze enthusiasm), zeal.
As an Aries being I never have to pull passion off of a shelf and pack it to take with me. Passion never gets written down on my "TO DO" list. I am never without it, I never run short. If I were to mirror my passion towards many aspects of life to my relationship to money in my pocket book I would have a fortune.
I know there is a concern that is associated with passion, that it can be deeply stirring and ungovernable. Passion can be short lived and quickly faded. Here I am eager to be ingenious enough to move beyond my previous understanding of passion and to redesign it within myself. I believe this means a much more actualized approach, taking consciousness … awareness … the full sensory capacity of my higher being … and bringing that to the table of my life.
"Ignite subtle revolutions everywhere you go" … !!!!
"Explore the frontiers of smart love". This is what I am ready for.
"ARIES: a reader bragged to me about her prowess, she wrote "My capacity for expressing love far surpasses that of anyone I have ever met, I am a Sublime Genius of Love, a Master of Unconditional Compassion, a Virtuoso of Deep Empathy." Your assignment in the coming days, Aries, is to compete with her: Unleash a perfect storm of ingenious passion that will ignite subtle revolutions everywhere you go. Explore the frontiers of smart love".
I immediately wondered what this reader was doing bragging about being so capable of love and so enlightened about how to share it. What is she doing "bragging" with a consciousness like that when she could paint rainbows with her fingertips instead of focus on affirmations to live by. That is when it dawned on me that this was an affirmation, a mantra … a devotion to love.
Very sweet.
Then Brezny promotes a classic move to instigate other Aries beings to compete. Like he knows we will. We will or at least I did … compete … but with myself. I took myself to task on the part of the horoscope that centered in me, to "unleash a perfect storm of ingenious passion that will ignite subtle revolutions everywhere you go … to explore the frontiers of smart love".
That is such a powerful initiative and it compelled me to look at my desire for a love relationship. I seek my true companion with each aspect of my being … the emotional, the mental, the physical and the spiritual.
To "unleash a perfect storm" … a perfect storm … a perfect storm. What is a perfect storm? The thunderstorms that roll into the Rocky Mountains of Colorado on a warm/hot summer's afternoon … the kind of thunderstorms that you want to be playful in came to mind.
"Ingenious Passion" …
INGENIOUS: showing or calling for intelligence, aptitude, or discernment ~ marked by a special aptitude at discovering, inventing, or contriving ~ marked by originality, resourcefulness, and cleverness in conception or execution ~ clever.
PASSION: an emotion, a feeling ~ the emotions as distinguished from reason ~ intense, driving, or overmastering feeling or conviction ~ an outbreak of anger ~ ardent affection, LOVE ~ a strong liking or desire for or devotion to some activity, object, or concept ~ sexual desire ~ an object of desire or deep interest ~ fever, ardor, enthusiasm (you should never analyze enthusiasm), zeal.
As an Aries being I never have to pull passion off of a shelf and pack it to take with me. Passion never gets written down on my "TO DO" list. I am never without it, I never run short. If I were to mirror my passion towards many aspects of life to my relationship to money in my pocket book I would have a fortune.
I know there is a concern that is associated with passion, that it can be deeply stirring and ungovernable. Passion can be short lived and quickly faded. Here I am eager to be ingenious enough to move beyond my previous understanding of passion and to redesign it within myself. I believe this means a much more actualized approach, taking consciousness … awareness … the full sensory capacity of my higher being … and bringing that to the table of my life.
"Ignite subtle revolutions everywhere you go" … !!!!
"Explore the frontiers of smart love". This is what I am ready for.
thoughts on love ...
it is in the love that we have known, the love that we are living ... that manifests the love that will change the world ... LL
Friday, March 6, 2009
what the .... ?????
that last blog posted automatically in a nice color and in my usual font ... sweet!!!
Well ... well ... well
I read my own blog yesterday and reading it caused a tenderness to set into my heart. I tracked some growth, some lessons, some vulnerability here on this blog.
Always seek the highest good. That can be a complex and introverted process. Maybe that is where I have been in not posting here. After all this blog is wide open.
I have loved this form of expression. I have been blessed to be productively and effectively busy over the past several months and that has been valid reason to not sit and type out what is growing in my life. However I miss the arena. I have not missed out on growth, I have missed this place of expression.
I have posted blogs on myspace, I have considered a newsletter, I am in the process of creating a website and I am pledging to myself that I will sit in the "indigo swirls" of my heart and mind at the very least once a week from here on out.
I am going to transfer some of my blog posts from myspace over to this blog.
Now ... what the heck was the font that I use here, what color blended so well (in my opinion) ... my mind has filled with other things and for the sake of this moment I will post this as it is.
I remain so grateful for Gayle, she will always be such a remarkable inspiration for me.
Always seek the highest good. That can be a complex and introverted process. Maybe that is where I have been in not posting here. After all this blog is wide open.
I have loved this form of expression. I have been blessed to be productively and effectively busy over the past several months and that has been valid reason to not sit and type out what is growing in my life. However I miss the arena. I have not missed out on growth, I have missed this place of expression.
I have posted blogs on myspace, I have considered a newsletter, I am in the process of creating a website and I am pledging to myself that I will sit in the "indigo swirls" of my heart and mind at the very least once a week from here on out.
I am going to transfer some of my blog posts from myspace over to this blog.
Now ... what the heck was the font that I use here, what color blended so well (in my opinion) ... my mind has filled with other things and for the sake of this moment I will post this as it is.
I remain so grateful for Gayle, she will always be such a remarkable inspiration for me.
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